Kids Day At The Office

Friday, December 30, 2016

I can't believe and I am reluctant to believe that my holiday from work is already halfway through. We have a 2 week break from work and it's incredible how the first week had gone so quickly! I tried to spend as much time with the kids as possible, taking them to places too, because as soon as work resumes, I will have none of these again.

The last day at work was a very pleasant one as kids were invited to visit the workplace with their parents. Thanks to Daddy who drove us in the morning so we could come early and be saved from the hassle of public transport.

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Summer Nights Dream

Thursday, December 29, 2016

It had been a couple of very warm nights now and the kids are finding it difficult to settle before sleeping. On top of that, hubby is working at night for about 2 weeks now. That means, the kids were constantly competing for the vacant spot next to me! I'm deeply flattered although this poses a great dilemma too - as only 2 people could fit on the mum-&-dad-bed.

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Love Letters and Stuffs!

Thursday, December 22, 2016

As the days get closer to ending the 2016, I can't say that things are winding down smoothly. Disappointments pour left and right, not only to me, but me as a disapointment to others (sheepishly, I ask forgiveness please). I hope I don't receive a lot of hate for my shortcomings hehe.

I am proud to say though that I am still very thankful because I have been given girlfriends - both close and apart - who have been sources of courage at times and sounding boards for most. Other than my family, they were the ones who were willing to lift me up and encourage me to keep trying even when I was so bitter and dark. Special mention goes to my besty, Lorraine, blog pal (personally considered blog guru), Diane and "ate" Didith.

As a simple gesture of gratitude, I wish to make my girlfriends happy and send them a few cute stuffs - making use of my skills in art. For my ate, being within arms reach, a personalised coffee cup, a personalised charm and a funny book about girl talk.

The cup bearing her signature motto: she believed she could so she did!

For besty and Diane who are miles away from me, an old school post with mini surprises inside. I love letters! Besides, I have been wanting to actually use this cute customized wraparound label. Believe - in keeping the LOVE burning for it is our best defense against every trials and problems.

This is a sneak peek... It's should be almost complete but not quite as I have yet to write the main letter but I'm getting there. Hopefully, I would be able to write about what's inside afterwards :)

To inspire me, my "ate" also gave me this lovely drink coaster - 

Now, every time I take my tea and coffee breaks, I shall always be positively charged. :)
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Happy Thoughts & Memories

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

I have just re-read my last post and had to wince at that. I know it was a real struggle I had just went through and thankfully I had overcome it since then. That day, I remember feeling like Zuko in Avatar the Last Airbender (insert my husband giving me the look of exasperation for always inserting Avatar whenever I can haha). I was feeling angry and sad - at myself.

I'm angry at myself! -if only I can firebend! :D - source
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Monsters Inside My Head

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

I don’t know where to start. That’s how confused I am. I don’t even know what to think anymore.

There’s a turmoil inside my heart. The more that I expect to see myself happier and more peaceful, the heavier the weight becomes. It’s like a thunderstorm brewing up inside me, dark and ominous, hovering, blocking the hint of light that keeps me sane.

People say “if you can’t beat them, join them.” But I refuse to belong to a system that violates virtues I hold on to. In moments when I am weak, I feel like succumbing would be the best resort. Or is it moments when I am strong? I don’t know, I don’t know. I don’t even know if I had been strong at all. Maybe, I was simply unconventional from the beginning. Do I even belong?

My mind is spinning from incomprehensible thoughts. Ideals that contradict realities, disappointed expectations. What used to be simple has now become complex. How can I ever go back to the basics? Have I lost my track? Go back to the Philippines? Will it make things okay? Will it make things right? I know God can pick sense out of a confused prayer, but am I even capable of that?
Are these merely monsters in my head?
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